Friday, 17 November 2017

Murders, muffins and music.

Like many people with mental health issues I have some things I do daily so I feel okay, along with a little box of tricks I delve into when I know things aren't going so well.

It's the usual stuff we're advised will help: exercise, eating well, getting enough sleep, surrounding myself with positive people, doing my daily meditation and of course Moodscope. Proven techniques to get me back on track.

However, also in the depths of my tool box are some more obscure methods. During counselling they were things I did that really made a difference. 'Do these thing more,' said the counsellor. So now I do.

Agatha Christie's Poirot. I've no idea why this helps so much but it does. Maybe it's partly because it demands my full attention, it takes me temporarily to another world and it's just so far removed from normal daily life so my brain is able to rest.

Baking – I'm a terrible cook and burn everything but I love to bake. It fills the house with an amazing comforting smell, again it takes my full attention, it also transports me back to my childhood and at the end you have something to enjoy and something to give to other people. What a great feeling.

And lastly, and probably the most obscure... 80's piano star Richard Clayderman (younger people google). My late Mother was a big fan and when I put this on it's such gentle, comforting music it seems to fill the whole house with her.

So there you have it, my full confession of the more unusual techniques that help me when things get tough. Obscure possibly – effective yes.
 
So come on why don't you share yours if you have them, it might help someone else.

Rosie
A Moodscope member.

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Thursday, 16 November 2017

How to fool the world.

Yes I know it's an odd thing to say but I do it every day.

I might have mentioned once before that I work in a Hospital, I might have said how I see all manner of things in my day some good some sad, some uplifting some devastating.

I have realised that I fool the world I live in every day while dealing with everything that walks through the Hospital doors.

I am at once able to attend to people's needs, directing them to the care that they need, sometimes just a friendly chat seems to be all they require. I can chat and chat!

I answer the phone and I often hear myself laughing with some colleague or sharing a moan, it always amazes me how normal and happy I sound.

In fact I wish I could meet that me and share a coffee or something as we would get on so well!

Underneath all this is the constant churning in my stomach, butterflies fluttering and crashing into each other as I gulp down some air to steady my racing brain, desperately trying to keep the dreaded darkness at bay.

Depressed? Neurotic? Naturally down? I can't seem to label myself, I just know that the dark despair is a world away from the paradise I see in other people's lives sometimes.

A stranger can impact an impression on me in seconds, I can look and admire their dress sense their posture and happy vibes as they stride through my day, I cannot imagine these people having the black moments I struggle with.

I never show it.

I am just me, smiley welcoming helpful me.

And yet, and yet!

There it is plainly standing there before me this wall that separates me from the rest, a tall black ugly wall blocking out the light and the rainbows that I know are there somewhere.

I sometimes stop to stare out of my office window and admire the sunshine filtering through the trees and the tiny birds shrilly enjoying their little birdy lives.

Flowers hanging onto their beautiful colourful coats before the colder wetter winter days arrive to wash them away.

I can feel the glow of autumn surrounding me and forget for a moment about the darkness standing there in the corner slowly moving across the room towards me. It stops in its tracks as I lift up my phone and console the caller who is distressed about their relative. I can hear my voice talking to them calmly, comforting them and finally wishing them well and yes please do call me anytime.

I am very kind I think.

It's just this wall of sorrow that has attached itself to me it will not leave me alone, I can see how it might end, it's a bit odd but the sleep it could give me is so welcome sometimes, I could just let it fold over me and close my eyes and just sleep in its thick black arms.

It's the phone ringing that I automatically reach out for that drags me just for a little while back into the sunbeams sitting on my desk and the sound of the small birds singing that allows me to be the kind woman on the end of the phone again.

Just for now.

Just for now.

Audrey
A Moodscope member.

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Wednesday, 15 November 2017

Mens Sana in Corpore Sano – Pars Una.

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I always associate that phrase with slightly sweaty, red-faced, public-school type chaps who have just come off the rugby field and wouldn't recognise a complex if it hissed at them and battered them over the head with a two-by-four. Even then, they might frown slightly and wonder if this was some kind of new-fangled mathematical theorem.

But it popped into my mind yesterday and so I thought I'd play with it for a while.

These words are widely used in sporting and educational contexts to express the theory that physical exercise is an important or essential part of mental and psychological well-being.

But it's not just exercise, is it?

What is it to have a healthy mind in a healthy body?

For many of us reading this, it is just a dream. Our minds have been so battered by depression for so long we wonder if they will ever heal. Many of us have chronic physical health conditions which contribute to the mental anguish.

But maybe we could do something to help a bit. After all, every little helps, doesn't it?

Exercise is part of it of course, but we probably all know someone who is fit but not healthy. The brain needs to be exercised as well as the body and nutrition plays a big part in maintaining the health of both mind and body.

So – for my next three blogs I will be thinking about nutrition, exercise and meditation. I will be your guinea-pig (with apologies to my own lovely guinea-pigs, Nugget and Patchy). And I will let you know how I get on.

Healthy Eating: what diet helps best with depression and how can we stick to it?
Exercise: how much and of what type is good for us?
Meditation: What form, if any, is right?

I'll be honest and say that I have been playing with the healthy eating thing for a long time, but have only recently taken it on seriously (the tummy was getting to the stage where it needed its own postcode). You know that I swim, but I don't do anything else in the least bit strenuous, and – meditation always seemed to demand time I would rather spend doing other things. So, this will honestly be a new experiment for me too.

I'm sure many of you have your own views. Many of you will have found strategies which work for you. Maybe I have missed something vital in my elements above. So – please do click through to the comments to make your point; you can do it anonymously if you like – I won't tell!

After all, we all know that body and mind are not separate – every one of us is a holistic unit.

I'll see you next week when I report in on nutrition.

Mary
A Moodscope member.

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Tuesday, 14 November 2017

Sharing my journey.

I wrote this email below to my son, who is having trouble with his ability to cope with any additional stress in his life as he starts his second year at university and after several years of significant destabilising life events; but more than that he is having trouble coming to terms with the fact that he needs a plan for recovery. I shared with him part of my journey:

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"I'm not sure if I've mentioned this site but I first started using Moodscope after I had counselling to help me overcome the grief after my best friends death. I watched the video on the website and used the score system several times a week for several years. More recently, I've only used the scoring system a couple of times a year.

What is interesting though is the emails that come through every day once enrolled. I mostly glance at them, but every now and then something catches my eye. I would not say that I have been feeling down for any length of time for ages, but we all get our blue days. However, what I realise though is that good mental health is like any health; you have to do exercise to maintain it.

Understanding that I'm not the only one who has struggled with their demons makes things easier and to read the blogs of others keeps the 'exercise' routine required for good mental health.

It takes some time to settle into other people's language of expression, explanation and recuperation, but almost all the blogs are helpful and positive in some way.

As I mentioned the other day, the first step on the road to recovery is to admit that you are unable to cope with your situation and that you need help. Don't be afraid of saying these things to yourself and to your loved ones. They will be ready support, with no judgment and with love.

As a start, go to Moodscope and see what you think."

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Shaun
A Moodscope member.

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Monday, 13 November 2017

Forgive them - they haven't got a clue!

I was awake in the night, thinking about forgiveness. I don't know if you have the same issues I have, but my mind can really lock on to stuff I don't want to think about - especially when I want to go to sleep! I seem to have very little 'thought control'!

There were my thoughts skipping around the field of my mind, dwelling on negative people and experiences, and there was I desperately seeking snoozland.

Forgiveness is a challenge for all of us, because most of the time it is focused on a real offence or injury against us. It is emotionally charged, too, which makes the event powerfully significant as far as the brain is concerned. Anything with emotions attached is hard to forget.

My own breakthrough in the night was to think about this blog and how it might help.

So, here is an example to make my point. I'm going to ask you 4 questions - simple questions, which I'd like you to answer for me.

What number am I thinking of between 1 and 100?
What colour am I thinking of?
What girl's name?
What boy's name?

Before I reveal the answers, my point is that you are most unlikely to be a mind-reader.  If you cannot see through my eyes, you cannot see the world as I see it. Not exactly.

And if you cannot perceive the world in the way I see it, it's not fair for me to expect you to understand me. Not fully. This means that you could easily offend me without even knowing it because you don't relate to me in the way I relate to you! I've got different standards, different interpretations, different rules. No wonder relationships are complex!

I don't see through your eyes, you don't see through mine, so how can I accurately judge you based on my own perception? I can't. In fact...

You don't know what you're doing when it comes to understanding the world as I see it. You haven't got a clue!

Of course, I'm exaggerating to make my point. You have a got a clue. You and I have enough overlapping understanding to get along. It's just that the incompleteness of our perception leaves space for grace, a gap for forgiveness to slip on through. Because you don't know what you're doing when it comes to understanding me or even behaving towards me, I can forgive you... and you can forgive me.

I asked my partner Penelope those four questions this morning and even though she knows me better than anyone, she only got 1 out of the 4 correct.

[My choices were 37, Purple, Samantha, Samuel. How well did you read my mind?]

'Stuff' is going to happen over the coming week, stuff that could keep you awake at night until you master the art of forgiveness. I hope that you'll realise that nobody knows what they're really doing, they haven't got a clue... so let's forgive them, me and you, eh?

Lex
A Moodscope member.

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Sunday, 12 November 2017

The next big thing.

I recently heard a man talk of happiness versus fun.

He described happiness as being an inside feeling of ok. Things are ok. The rain is ok!  My cooking was ok. My children are ok. My writing is ok. My jumper is ok. (And of course, sometimes these things are fabulous.)

He described fun as often what we do when we crave happiness. We try to block out any other feelings around by having fun. In response to not feeling ok, some people will party hard, having lots of 'fun'. Eat many doughnuts having lots of 'fun'. Have another drink because they're having 'fun'. But can we feel the difference?

Are you filling up on fun and forgetting that the quest may be impeding your happiness? Happiness lies beneath. It's a small feeling that needs very little to power it. It's not a trail blazer, more a trail that has been there from the start. It is persistent and it doesn't give up on you.

Perhaps today you might think of what is 'fun' in your life and what brings you a smaller, more contented feeling requiring very little to power it.

Go small. It's the next big thing.

Love from

The room above the garage
A Moodscope member.

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Saturday, 11 November 2017

Lest We Forget.

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"There's no right or wrong way to wear your poppy," said the immaculately uniformed young woman, as she helped me pin on my brave red paper flower, "Just so long as you wear it with pride."

So, I'm happy to wear my poppy with pride. Not to support in any way the brutality and inhumanity of war, but in gratitude to those who served their country; who lost their lives or their health in our defence.

Larry, a member of my Bipolar Group, has two sons at home. Both have served in the Army. Both have been deployed in Afghanistan. Both have come home with their bodies intact, but their minds shattered. Larry says he feels they have been forgotten by the Army: there is no help there.

I have written before on the specific mental health problems experienced by our Armed Forces. My hope is that, in future, as much attention and funds will be given to the minds of our servicemen and women as to their bodies; that we will not forget those who sacrificed their mental health for their country.

"But – why are we all here?" asked Ash, in that meeting. "Are we here to gain support from each other; to know that we are not alone?"

There were various answers around the room. Some of us feel we are gradually making friends around the table. Those of us who are well enough attend social gatherings every other month enjoy those evenings. One of my fellow members is the husband of a business friend. She and I get along very well and the bi-polar connection is another point of contact. Her Barry, recently diagnosed, is responding well to medication and has even been able to return to paid employment, although not at anywhere near the salary or position he held before.

"I don't want to forget," I said, in my turn. "I have been so well since I started this new medication in February. I am more stable than I have ever been before. But I don't want to forget what it was like."

And I don't.

I know that, for many sufferers with Bi-polar, they get to a stage where they feel so well, they think they can do without the medication. So, they stop taking it – with disastrous results. This is not helped by all the well-meaning folk out there who shake their heads and point out that it can't be healthy to put all these chemicals into your body. Huh! Do they say that to diabetics, I wonder?

So, I don't want to forget the jealous rages, and unreasonable passions; the time I pushed away my dearest friend and nearly lost him. I don't want to forget the months spent shaking on the sofa, unable to leave the house. I don't want to forget the seductive and dangerous call of the river.

I am well now but I don't want to forget.

Any more than I want to forget those my poppy calls me to remember.

Mary
A Moodscope member.

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Friday, 10 November 2017

If.

When I was younger my dad asked me, what is the longest word in the English language, I was so excited and said the answer was smiles as there is a mile between first s and last s. He was not convinced and told me "If" was the longest word. My seven-year-old mind thought that must have been a joke as how could a 2-letter word be longest word and be longer than my mile word.

As I grew older I kept thinking about what he had said and saw how powerful the word is as it had so many possibilities. If I had done this, If this happens, if this had not happened.

I notice two phrases using if, 'What if' and 'If only' are creeping into my own vocabulary as well as into other's everyday language.

I use 'What if' when I am imagining what might happen or what could have happened. I use 'If only' when I am annoyed I could have done something better or tried harder.

I asked some friends about how they use what if and if only.

One friend told me "I can waste an awful lot of life catastrophizing when I say 'What if', so I avoid using it."

A customer told me "What if - could mean anything. I think I naturally tend to say 'What if' to everything and used to hate it as I believed it made me susceptible to anxiety and depression.

A neighbour explained that "What if is more like being able to imagine all sorts of different scenarios, and feeling which one I want best. It helps to visualise my goals and options in my life and then try to strive towards them.

Like - what if things turn out ok? What would I want to do?

What if my fears are true? What would I do? But what if they aren't?"

A neighbour said "It is the imagining I think that can lead to the best experiences (...as well as the most paralysing fears.)"

Some people felt that 'If only' is wishing the past or present were different, and doesn't encourage action as much. It mostly leaves you focused on what you lack, rather than what you have.

My cousin explained to me that 'What if' maybe a natural defence mechanism to stop us repeating our mistakes.

What do the expressions 'What if' and 'If only' mean to you?

Do you use them often, or not much?

Do you use one expression more than the other?

Leah 
A Moodscope member

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Thursday, 9 November 2017

Active and Afraid.

I have plagiarised the series of excellent blogs by Lex, offered to our Moodscope community quite a while ago (September to November 2013) looking at the Moodscope cards and their meaning. Today I'd like to take another look at the Active and Ashamed cards.

Active

A Moodscope red card meaning a good thing. Lex put himself into the 'Activist' preference (the four preferences being Activist, Pragmatist, Theorist and Reflector). He pointed us towards his favoured variant - proactivity - as being a deliberate application of action and energy towards a desired goal.

I think of Active in a slightly different way. We are all guilty of doing what that Simon and Garfunkel song said, "hearing without listening". It's important for ourselves and our loved ones that we use Active listening: really paying attention.

Very often today we are told that Mindfulness is what we need – well that's really a state of paying Active attention on the present. For me Active is often concerned with being physical. Physical activity is what often helps me personally to pull through periods of despair.

Bear in mind that you may be a morning person or a night person – we all pretty well know which type we are. So how we score ourselves on the Active card may well be different depending upon our body clock and when we do our Moodscope test.

Being Active becomes really positive when we do something because we WANT to do it rather than because of fear or to prove our capability to ourselves or others. You can do things that can help you towards a better Active score: for me that's mostly exercise or doing something that helps others.

Afraid

Feeling frightened, having fear... Lex told us that fear needs to be faced, never ignored.  By facing fear we test its validity. If, having been faced, the fear reveals a true danger then the danger can be tackled.

Being afraid – having fear – is a powerful and primitive human emotion. It has two stages, biochemical and emotional. The biochemical stage is universal whilst the emotional response depends very much on the individual. Some of us are of course very afraid, it may be an exaggerated feeling of fear but that doesn't make the fear less real. Lex suggested that if we drag our fear into the light of full inspection we can have confidence that it will pass.

Personally I always seem to use "a little" as my score on this card. I always am a little afraid, often totally unable to rationalise why that is the case which in turn makes it hard for me to do the Lex thing of dragging it into the light of full inspection. Maybe your Afraid is greater than mine, maybe if you really closely examine your fear you will find that you are even a little addicted to fear, in the way that the "adrenaline junkies" often are.

There's nothing wrong with being afraid, it's what sometimes helps to keep us alive. Choose your score with thought: face your fear.

Do you have any tips, insights ideas or advice to share on these two first cards?

David
A Moodscope member

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Wednesday, 8 November 2017

Dealing with Frustration.

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"We regret that the pool is closed," said the sign and I hit the roof!

It was day 8 of the pool being unavailable and I like to swim at least three times a week – more if I can fit it in. I understand that there are sometimes circumstances beyond control which can mean that the pool is unavailable for my use, but – honestly – day 8 of the chlorine levels being too high?

All the poor receptionist could do was stand there, apologising and clinging to the desk for support, while the waves of my anger washed over her.

And – yes – I did make sure she knew it wasn't personal and that my attack was not aimed at her. She quite understood and mine was not the first enraged reaction she had dealt with this morning. I would imagine it was not the last.

Having got it out of my system I went to use the shower facilities and reflected that at least I had gained an extra hour of morning and extra time is always a gift.

But this lead me to examine how we deal with frustration and upset.

We all get frustrated at times. It has been suggested there are only three causes of upset: disappointed expectations, frustrated intentions and undelivered communication. You can see that this morning contained all three – as the person I really wanted to yell at was not the receptionist.

The start of dealing with any upset is to realise what's going on; to analyse it. I expected the pool to be open (especially after eight days) and it wasn't, so I was disappointed; I intended to swim and was frustrated in that ambition. I wanted to yell at the manager or the pool engineer and had to settle for the receptionist – poor girl – so I have an undelivered communication.

Of course, that analysis does involve taking a step back and drawing in a deep breath, but that's always beneficial. Apart from anything else, it allows you to choose your words for maximum annihilating effect!

Analysing the upset also helps us see it in proportion. Was my day really ruined by my being unable to swim? What were the consequences? Well, my fitness levels and blood pressure will not improve today, but they won't noticeably be affected by a week or so of not swimming. I won't be able to meditate and write while I swim up and down (you didn't know that most writing occurs "off the page", did you?), but I can meditate at home and I can write at home too. The only thing which cannot be completely replaced is that wonderful sensation of having stretched one's body and relaxed one's mind. Maybe if I did yoga or running I could duplicate it – but I don't do either of those: I swim.

So, yes – I'm still a little annoyed, but I've put it perspective. And – I had that extra hour of time.

I spent it writing this blog.

Mary
A Moodscope member.

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Tuesday, 7 November 2017

What do I want?

It is Halloween.

It is Midterm break.

My son and his two pals are running through the leaves, dragging the dogs with them. Races are set up and end in squeals and yelps. The boys are happy out. Their laughter is a delight to hear.

My friend and I sit watching them, hugging our take-out coffees. I am eating chocolate (someone has to!) and she is being abstemious.

Animatedly, I relate funny stories from my week. My work. My kids. My crazy life. I am never boring.

But my friend, training to be a psychotherapist, puts her hand on mine and asks '...but are you okay?'

I can't catch my breath for a moment. I don't feel okay. I am acting. I am covering. I will myself not to cry.

'I feel anxious,' I admit.

There, I said it. And it all comes tumbling out. I feel anxious. I feel sad. I feel alone. I live in a busy house with children and animals and I have wonderful friends but... every day is my responsibility. Every decision is mine. Every mistake is mine. Every joy is mine. Parenting alone is just that - Parenting on your own. It's hard. But the alternative was much harder. I feel lost.

My friend suggests I ask myself one question: 'What do I want?'

I stare blankly. I start to babble, talking about my children, about the special people in my life. She interrupts me: 'I know this is hard but you must put everyone, even your children, aside for this exercise. Call it Stage 1. For this stage, only ask: What do I want?'

I stare blankly. I make the usual jokes about winning the Lotto. About a job in Hollywood. About a filthy-rich lover. My friend waits patiently. I stare blankly again.

She suggests I take a big blank white page. And write or draw or paste or scribble or do something to describe what I want. 'How can you ask the universe/ god(s)/ goddesses/ higher power for what you want when you do not know yourself?'

The red-faced boys spy our coffees and run over.

'Where's our hot chocolate?'

I smile at the happy boys and exhausted dogs. I smile at my psychotherapist-in training friend.

'When you've graduated, you won't charge me for our chats, will you?'

She laughs. We hug each other. The boys playfully punch each other.

So, today I am sitting in front of a big blank white page.

'What do I want?'

Salt Water Mum
A Moodscope member.

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Monday, 6 November 2017

On Second Thought.

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If you and I can control three things, we can succeed where others have fallen:

1. Control of our time

2. Control of our emotions

3. Control of our thoughts

A wonderful cliché may offer us a way.

"On second thought..."

We cannot control the first thought that comes to mind, but we most certainly can control the second thought!

I have a cassette tape series somewhere in my collection that has the catchphrase, "Time, don't wonder where it went; tell it where to go!" Time, emotions, and thoughts need to be told where to go!

This brings us to the first control point, how to control our time. With an utterly fair, 168 hours per week at everyone's disposal, time management is choice management. It's how you and I choose to spend our time that counts. The second thought we need when we are about to commit our time to someone else's agenda is simply, "Is this the best use of my time?" Stephen R Covey talks about exercising integrity in the moment of choice – in other words, to make your choices based upon your values. You know what a good use of your time is... according to your values. Just as 'beauty' is in the eye of the beholder, so also a 'good use of time' is a matter of your own perception.

The second control point, how to control our emotions, is offered us by some physiology. We have a physiological control mechanism between the pre-frontal cortex and the emotional centre – the limbic system – in the brain, that allows us the power of self-control. Granny's wisdom of, "Count to ten and win," is a great example of leaving enough of a gap between stimulus and response for us to have a second thought.

Second thoughts, when it comes to emotional self-control, include, "Is this the way of love?" and, "Is this the kind thing to do?" and, "I can choose peace rather than this."

The third control point, how to control our thoughts, is really just to remember we have the power of what to choose as the second thought. For all of us, we can always ask ourselves, "What is the most resourceful way to respond?" and, "What response would get the best result?" and, "How can this thought serve me?"

This is particularly powerful when the first thought is forced into your mind by what someone else says or does - and external source of thought.

I feel wondrously freed today by the idea that it is the second thought that counts – not the first!

Lex
A Moodscope member.

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Sunday, 5 November 2017

Feng Shui and Autumn.

Hi fellow Moodscopers, I have been a feng shui practitioner for about 25 years. Recently I wrote a post for my website about Autumn, which I find both beautiful and melancholy.

As many of you know, feng shui is about respecting a naturally occurring order to life: fire burns wood and turns it to ash, ash becomes earth, the soil of the earth produces metal, metal collects water in the form of condensation, water brings life to wood, and wood feeds fire.

This cycle can also be represented by the changing seasons: summer into fall, fall to winter, winter into spring, and back to summer again.

In the northern hemisphere we are experiencing autumn and it is a passing, like all seasons, from one creative phase to another. Because this beautiful season never seems to last very long it should be appreciated for all its remarkable change.

I always feel a charge when autumn approaches, as do most people. There is a coolness to the air, the leaves are falling, the days shorter, and the sights and smells of an imagined harvest seem to propagate from every house I walk past: orange and white pumpkins commingling with multicolored potted chrysanthemums on front steps, wreaths of berries and gherkins adorn front doors, piles of red and brown leaves smelling like wet earth sit in great piles along curbs waiting for removal.

We invariably prepare for winter like all animals, and within that comes another important aspect of autumn: accepting change and letting go of things no longer needed. With each leaf raking, each removal of dead flowers we are preparing to enter a quiet time for appreciation and anticipation. Fall is an excellent time to declutter and let go of things that we no longer need so that we have room to accept new opportunities, new people, new jobs, wealth, etc into our lives. I have always loved the Native American saying "Be thankful for unknown blessings already on their way," because to me it encapsulates the essence of fall and letting go.

Regardless if your summer was one filled with joy or with sadness, fall is an opportunity to reflect, appreciate, release and prepare for blessings already on their way.

Lexi
A Moodscope user.

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Saturday, 4 November 2017

Dealing with intertia.

(A contradiction in terms)

When my husband went into a permanent home there was relief all round. Immediate reaction was like a stable-kept horse who has a two-week 'holiday' in a field. I felt I would say 'whey hey' and rush round doing all the stuff I could not do for two years. Then I found I was in a state of limbo, inertia, almost like a cocooned insect.

Jul, in a post to the blog on 26th October gave me a fairly stiff lecture. So, I've invented a dopple-ganger, alter ego, what you will. She is called 'Sensible Person' (there was a reasonably sensible one in this body once) and she has to cope with 'Miss Inertia'.

They are S.P and M.I.

M.I. It's 9 a.m., I've overslept. I shall be late.

S.P. What for, and does it matter anyway?

M.I. The kitchen's a mess, none of the washing's dry, look at the office desk, and what about the two gardens?

S.P. You used to be a good organiser – you can't do it all at once – drink your coffee in peace then start logically.

M.I. (Old style). I've got the lyric of 'There's a hole in my bucket, dear Liza, dear Liza'. My husband and his brother were always asking my advice, then finding any excuse not to do it. I was always muttering 'Well DO it dear Henry, DO it.

S.P. Now don't leave the kitchen half way and go up to the bedroom, panicking about the office on the way. No opening the kitchen door till it is to your liking.

M.I. I must check the e-mails first.

S.P. You checked them before breakfast, and if you go near that computer you will play Solitaire for half an hour and the kitchen will look even worse, then you'll start panicking about being late. You can go now, kitchen perfect – nice to have a coffee where nothing offends.

M.I. Now half-heartedly attacking bedroom. Wail. This washing will never dry.

S.P. Well, stop this silly economy, turn the radiators on – stuff will be dry in less than half an hour. Now, no computer – it's dry, gardening, and you are NOT tired.

M.I. Half an hour later, having attacked bits of the garden leaving several piles of rubbish. 'I can't cart all this round to the compost heap. Anyway, can't get at it'.

S.P. Well, clear that, then you can come back later.

M.I. Oh, I'd forgotten what a nice bit of brick work is in front of the compost heap, must sweep it up. (Does far too much gardening, near collapse.) Oh dear, I haven't been shopping, nothing in house, will have to go to supermarket.

S.P. (Refraining from making obvious remark). The Leclerc bakery does excellent sandwiches – go and get one, and one of those nice 'Bucheron' loaves, and sit down with a Kir and a Sudoku.

But M.I is incorrigible – brain does not have inertia – blog forms itself – better than Solitaire.

The photo is of my 'occupational therapy'. As things get tougher, the creations get more flamboyant, never sell them, and probably end up at Oxfam.

The Gardener
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Friday, 3 November 2017

The Times they are a Changing.

I have been feeling quite fed up recently, reading badly researched articles in the press about how lack of sleep can ruin your health and limit life expectancy. (I'm surprised I'm still alive then)

Also what to eat to ward off Alzheimers and what not to eat (and yes another early death).

So I decided I would concentrate more on the Arts and Culture sections of the newspapers and to my delight, I have read some interesting insights into the human condition (which don't cause early death)

One such article was about a film director and he said things like:

1. Family informs so much of who we are. It's about identity. But it's not always easy to go out into the world and know who we are. The more you learn, the more you realise you have to learn. To quote him he said "You never fix yourself."

2. Apparently this director is done with introspection as he says it's a dangerous place to be. I had to think about that. I'm still not sure if I agree or not.

And lastly the article suggested that definitions of success and failure are fluid.

I like to think that's true.

I suppose my blog today is about two things, one that it can be positive to change one's habitual reading matter. I have decided to tear out and screw into a ball potentially depressing articles about health (my newspaper will be very thin).

And also I wonder what Moodscopers think about the insights this film director has.

Jul
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Thursday, 2 November 2017

Hello you.

Sometimes we are told to take the advice we would give to another. In my experience this involves a conversation inside my head along the lines of:

Me: You're not taking any time for yourself
Other me: I know, but there's no time
Me: Try
Other me: Yep

It ends there. And I repeat that conversation weekly. Sometimes daily.

Today I fell over. I'd been coasting along and today I felt someone had sneaked into my wardrobe and sewn weights into all my clothing. I took the very, VERY unusual decision (and I rarely write in capitals) to have half a sick day and go to bed. I crawled under the top quilt and instantly fell asleep for two and a half hours.

Upon waking, my stomach growled, my mouth felt like it had been in a desert, my head was hot and thumping. I'm good at knowing how to fix this part well and I sorted it. After I was nourished I began working out ways to catch up. If I worked super-fast, If I cut a corner here and there, if I thumped the living daylights out of my keyboard in a paperwork catch up... then I decided enough was enough. And I talked to myself out loud. Yes, OUT LOUD.

Told myself what I was hating about the situation and then told myself some truths, out loud. The answers that I would give to my children or anyone else who was berating themselves. And do you know, it worked. I needed to be told and there was nobody else to do the telling. Maybe if you are having a day you might try it. Out loud. Properly. Tell yourself the problem and then answer yourself as if you were someone else.

It's worth a try!

Love from

The room above the garage
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Wednesday, 1 November 2017

Stepping Out of Time.

[To listen to an audio version of this blog, please click here: http://bit.ly/2igtU2e]

"For five days, you step out of time."

Fans of classic detective fiction may find that phrase familiar. It is from Ngaio Marsh's "Clutch of Constables"; the sign in the window which leads Agatha Troy, painter and wife of Superintendent Roderick Alleyn, of Scotland Yard, to book a river cruise. It was possibly with this in mind that I booked five days for my family on a narrow boat on the Oxford Canal.

Agatha Troy, naturally, finds herself embroiled in an art forgery ring and murder: this is Ngaio Marsh, after all. We experienced no such excitement. But, for five days, we did indeed step out of time.

It was my fifteen-year-old daughter who suggested, with startling maturity, that we leave all technology at home. So, we did. We took my husband's mobile phone for emergencies and the camera; but as he does not do social media in any form and does not get his emails sent to his phone, we were internet free.

There was a radio on the boat but we did not turn it on. Nor the TV. For five days, we lived outside the world.

There is magic about a narrow boat. The chug of the diesel engine is quietly industrious and, from the prow, inaudible. Speed is a gentle walking pace. The canal winds easily through the most beautiful English countryside. Our everyday cares sloughed from us as we glided through the water, exchanging greetings with our fellow travellers and experiencing nothing more exciting than the occasional lock and the challenge of meeting another boat going under a narrow bridge.

For a nature lover like me, it was heaven. The hedges on either side of the water were generously splattered with Midas' gold; scattered with topaz hips, ruby haws, the glowing peridot of crab-apples and the jet and moonstone glimmer of sloes. Birds sang as if it were April. We set off each day at sunrise and moored at sunset. Our heads nodded over our dinner and we were tucked up in our (narrow) beds by 8.30 each night. It was bliss.

Of course, after that five days, we had to come back to the world; to the posturing politicians and salacious celebrity gossip. But we had those five days; a gift to ourselves.

You don't need a narrow boat, but I'd recommend stepping out of time.

For a time, anyway.

Mary
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Tuesday, 31 October 2017

How to Have a Better Brain.

A couple of months ago I wrote about a series of short programmes on BBC Radio 4 called Busyness and Resting. Last week there was another series entitled "How to Have a Better Brain". These are repeats from 2015 so you may already have listened to them.

Sian Williams, probably best known as a presenter on BBC Breakfast, introduces the programmes. At the time of the initial broadcast she was studying for an MSc in Psychology.

The series is based around neuropsychologist Dr Catherine Loveday and her mother, Scilla, a former Consultant Psychiatrist who has been diagnosed with Accelerated Memory Loss (AML). The daughter has been looking into AML and identified a range of exercises and lifestyle changes that may help Scilla avoid, or at least delay, some of the symptoms of the condition.

The five programmes cover Exercise, Relaxation, Stimulation, Sleep and Diet; all areas that we are familiar with. So, whilst they are essentially targeting a condition linked to Epilepsy, Brain Injury and Age each episode discusses the science behind the different theories and much of it could equally apply to someone suffering from Depression.

As an example, we all know about the idea of planning for the next day before we go to bed but research suggests that thoughts we have at that time have a better chance of sticking. The same applies to writing a "gratitude journal" or similar. Other issues covered include the benefit of thinking about things whilst moving around, or out in the open air rather than sitting down indoors.

All, or at least a lot, of this we have heard about before but the occasional reminder can be useful and I find it helps if you understand that there is science behind much of it. This may encourage you to give something a go that otherwise you might have dismissed.

The programmes are available until mid November on BBC iPlayer Radio and only last just over an hour in total. Not a long time to spend if you find something that helps.

Alan
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Monday, 30 October 2017

The Straw that Saved the Camel's Back.

I have a dodgy back! From time to time, it tends to 'go', leading to up to three weeks of painful disability. I'm sure it can be fixed, but my point this morning is that I have a warning that it may be about to happen. There are twinges!

If I listen to these twinges, I can escape the penalty.

I meet many people who are on the edge of something about to 'go'. They are carrying a mindset prone to suffering. Just one more thing could be enough to set them off down a pathway of pain that will remain for a while.

Interrupting the Pattern with Kindness.

What if we could help change the next pathway they take?

A simple word of kindness can often become the straw that saved the Camel's back.

An unexpected word of kindness from you or me can often set somebody's day aright.

So here's today's challenge - to find a genuine word of kindness to apply to everyone you meet.

• A 'thank you' to the postman
• A compliment to your colleague who's taken extra care in their choice of dress
• A word of appreciation to your thoughtful neighbour
• An enthusiastic recognition of that distant friend across the park backed up with how pleased you are to see them... combined with a cheerful 'Good day!' to everyone you meet
and the king of all word-based kindnesses,
• The kindness-filled card sent to someone when it is neither their birthday, nor a special occasion.

The best thing about spreading this loving-kindness is that you too will remove straws from your own back, meaning that you may also avoid your 'back' (whatever that means for you) going out.

Bear one another burdens and so fulfil the law of love.

Lex
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Sunday, 29 October 2017

I'm here for you.

I know words won't take away your pain.
But I'm here for you.

When you feel like no one cares, I do.
I'm here for you.

When others judge, or criticize, or roll their eyes, I won't.
I'm here for you.

If it's 3 am and you don't want to burden anyone, call me.
I'm here for you.

If it seems so dark and the walls are closing in, I'll be your light and guide you.
I'm here for you.

If you feel like no one understands, I do. I've been there.
And I'm here for you.

When you can think of nothing good to say about yourself, I have a long list of good I see in you, right here for you.

When you can think of no reason to go on, I will be your reason.
I need to be here for you.

When you are upset for no reason, you don't need to give me a reason
to be here for you.

When you don't want advice or a lecture, and you just need someone to sit with you,
I'll sit here with you.

When you feel like you have failed, you haven't.
You were here for me.

Now I'm here for you.

I just love this poem which was published by Amie Merz, a counselor based in the US who writes a blog on healthyplace.com.

I hope you all have someone who would be there if you needed them. And if not, the Moodscope community are always here for you.

Caroline
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Saturday, 28 October 2017

Balancing strengths and weaknesses.

When I was seven I was very clumsy and unco-ordinated so my mother decided to send me to ballet classes so I could gain some poise and confidence. I found I was surrounded by slim accomplished ballet dancers whereas chubby me had trouble accomplishing first position. I used to hide at the back of the class. I heard the ballet teacher tell my mum she would not make me do exams as it would spoil the standard of her class. My brothers teased me by saying even the elephants from the movie Fantasia had more grace than I did. My parents were simply following parenting advice of the day that is still used today, to concentrate on the child's weakness.

Recently, I heard a radio programme about positive psychology applied to parenting where a parent is encouraged to focus on extending a child's strengths and not concentrating on the weakness.

This is sometimes called Strength-based parenting, an approach where parents deliberately identify and cultivate positive states, processes and qualities in their children.

A strength-based approach to parenting focuses first on the child's strengths - their talents, positive qualities, what your child does well and their good behaviour - before attending to their faults and shortcomings.

This approach is the opposite the more typical approach to parenting that places the bulk of attention on fixing what's wrong with our kids (which brings them up to scratch) but rather highlights what's right with children (which brings out their uniqueness).

My parents like their peers were trying to fix my clumsiness and other flaws. They also praised me and loved me but there was an emphasis on correcting one's behaviour.

I suppose I tried to concentrate on my children's strengths but I also wanted to improve their weaknesses.

I am not saying one approach is right or wrong, I am interested in exploring the effects each approach has on children and parents.

Would or did having your parents concentrate on the strengths rather than fixing your flaws, helped you growing up?

Do you think trends change all the time in psychology and parenting and this is just another one?

Leah 
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Friday, 27 October 2017

Bedtime.

Boing! goes Zebedee. Do you remember it? If so you are probably English and of a certain age. Zebedee, a Zorro-like puppet, appeared regularly in the children's TV programme 'The Magic Roundabout' in the 1960s. His closing line, at the end of the show, was usually 'Time for bed'.

Bedtime is a big issue for me. For many years, I've found it hard to go to bed at a reasonable time. 'Reasonable' for me would be around 10 or 10.30, allowing me time to footle around, spend the full two minutes cleaning my teeth, read for a while, and then fall asleep some time before 11.30. That would mean I could get up at 7.30 having had eight whole hours of sleep – what luxury! And hopefully I would face the day feeling fresh and enthusiastic - perhaps even remembering some colourful dreams that had waited until my last hour of sleep to show themselves.

What happens instead? I usually find reasons to look at the computer after 9.30 – so then that turns into at least 11 pm before I am even thinking of getting to bed. By then I am hungry again, so it's time for a 'little' snack, and let's face it, it would be even nicer with a glass of wine – oh, and there happens to be a bottle open already, how convenient!  Well, now it's gone midnight, so I may as well read for a bit to calm myself down. And what do you know, it's 1 o'clock – again, another late night. Is anyone else familiar with this sequence?

During this process, if I paid close attention, I would notice the tension in me. Something is wrong. Perhaps I've been disappointed – a friend hasn't rung, or I've performed badly in some way, and am feeling down about myself. Or I've made a massive to-do list today, and have carried on with it long after I was too tired to do things effectively.

The main thing is, rather than notice my tension early on, I am unconsciously trying to blank it out by distracting myself, with the computer, the TV, or perhaps sudoku. And I'm addicted to an online form of Boggle, which can easily keep me up til 2 in the morning even though my scores are appalling (there's always the hope that I will finally get a respectable one, if I just keep trying!).

What to do about this? One thing I have noticed is that building in some 'me' time earlier in the day brings powerful benefits later the same day. I don't feel resentful or cheated of 'my' time by whatever has happened during the day. I don't feel a need to cram in some 'me' time before I go to bed, although nowadays I find that I often fit some in just naturally.

Another thing that has helped is to adopt an affirmation of "I'm looking forward to tomorrow". At first it wasn't necessarily true, but it did switch my attention to thinking ahead hopefully, rather than looking back at what didn't go well today.

Do you have problems around getting to bed? If so, please share any tips for what has helped you. I'm still building up my toolkit for this one and would love some help!

Sal
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Thursday, 26 October 2017

Smiling on the inside.

For the last few years I've been feeding my neighbour's cats when she goes on holiday. I cover mornings and another neighbour does evenings. One cat is the equivalent of Marilyn Monroe. She bats her eyelashes at me, flirts Outrageously with a capital O, and makes me feel the world stops at me! I know its cupboard love but I fall for her every single time. I leave walking on pillows of happiness! The other cat is frightened of her own shadow. Our relationship is me talking gently to her from the ground whilst she cowers at the back and on the top of a cupboard near the ceiling.

However. Today I walked out on double pillows. Frightened cat not only greeted me with a little smile but she let me in to her own self. She allowed me to clap her when I arrived, and she came when I called out for her when breakfast was ready. She didn't back off in fear when I said cheerio.

She has trusted me. It's a magnificent feeling! It has given me a boost to know I can show her I mean no harm and she has accepted that.

If you are not in a good place, and you're struggling alone, I wonder if you might consider trusting someone. It not only helps you, it can mean the world to others too.

Love from

The room above the garage
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Wednesday, 25 October 2017

Wednesday's Child.

Monday's child is fair of face
Tuesday's child is full of grace
Wednesday's child is full of woe
Thursday's child has far to go
Friday's child is loving and giving
Saturday's child works hard for a living
But the child who is born on the Sabbath Day
Is bonny and blithe and good and gay

Is there one thing which distinguishes all people who suffer from depression? Do we all have hairy toes? Did we all have to sit next to a person we detested in our first year of school? Were we all born on a Wednesday?

Ash, the leader of our bipolar group, says that it is usually intelligent, creative people who are afflicted with depression and bi-polar disorder. I don't know. It does seem though, that many of my creative and intelligent friends do suffer. Just a few minutes ago I was chatting with a fellow writer I knew many years ago when we both lived in the same city. Our paths have diverged but we have recently reconnected on Facebook and got back in touch. I mentioned that I write for Moodscope. Oh, he knows all about Moodscope as he too has his own large "black dog" which sits on him from time to time; panting heavily and breathing foul doggy breath into his face.

But, can we say that this is inevitably the flip side of the coin? If one is intelligent and creative, must one automatically be predisposed to depression? If one suffers from depression, does that automatically make one intelligent and creative?

And, if so – why should that be?

I don't have any answers and I should be glad of your opinion on this, so please do comment, if you have a view.

I think a lot of it may depend upon the reasons for our depression. There seems to be a link with stress, especially with teenagers at school. It is the children who put themselves under pressure to perform who suffer most. I keep an eagle eye on my fifteen-year-old, who is predicted all 7s and 8s in her GCSEs next summer (that's the old As and A*s, by the way). For her, the prospect of getting a 6 (quite respectable), would equate to ignominious failure, and she drives herself to work more than I feel is wise.

Maybe it's the people who are too hard on themselves. Do you expect perfection of yourself and despair when you fall short of your expectations?

Or the people who are in stressful environments where there is no relief and no way out? The people who suffer bullying at work or in school?

Maybe our depression is caused by a combination of internal and external factors.

It may not help us feel better, but it may help us toward a more effective treatment if we can analyse what is external and what is internal.

And I can guarantee that one of the external factors will not be that we were all born on a Wednesday!

Mary
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Tuesday, 24 October 2017

Being Happy.

Emily Esfahani Smith, 'There is more to Life than being Happy' (Ted Talk 2017)
Viktor E Frankl, 'Man's Search for Meaning', Random House

For those of you unfamiliar with Ted Talks they are a series of video's given by expert speakers on a variety of subjects from science to business to global issues in more than 110 languages. TED started in 1984 and can be viewed on You tube or on their own web page each talk lasting between 10 and 30 minutes and I would recommend them to anyone.

Recently I watched a talk entitled "There is more to life than being Happy" given by Emily Esfahani which can be viewed here: http://bit.ly/2xr61hA

Emily identifies the rising tide of despair in modern life which she attributes not to a lack of happiness but to a lack of meaning. She then goes onto identify four pillars of a meaningful life, which are:

Belonging
Purpose
Transcendence
Storey Telling

The first three are fairly self explanatory the fourth refers to creating a narrative from the events of your life to help you understand how you became you. Emily goes on to give examples of how these four pillars can help individuals gain meaning in their lives and I would recommend you listen to the entire talk when you can.

Emily's talk reminded me of a book I recently read by the Psychiatrist Viktor E Frankl entitled "Man's Search for Meaning". Dr Frankl, who died in 1997, was a holocaust survivor who used his experiences to start his own school of psychotherapy which he called "Logotherapy". Logotherapy is a form of existential analysis based partly on Viktor's experiences in the camps and partly on Kierkegaard's "Will to meaning". As you have probably guessed it has a lot in common with Emily Esfahani's four pillars for a meaningful life.

I wont say any more about Logotherapy, you can read Viktor's book for that, although how anyone managed to find meaning in life living in Auschwitz is still beyond me, but one quote, this time from Nietzsche who ironically was Hitler's favourite philosopher, really struck home for me.

"He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how."

A thought to remember when treading those long Dark nights of the Soul.

Regards.

E
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Monday, 23 October 2017

Digging Out Anger from the Roots.

It's been a 'Fascinating' week – 'fascinating' in the sense used by Mr Spock on the original Star Trek. No matter how impossible the situation the crew of the Starship Enterprise was facing, the only F-word that Mr Spock would use was, "Fascinating!" People died, Spock said, "Fascinating!" Half the Enterprise ripped away by a Klingon Battlecruiser, Spock said, "Fascinating!" Aliens try to fry the brains of everyone on board, you guess it, Spock said, "Fascinating!"

'Fascinating' is a power word. It keeps you open to possibilities, to learning, and to a resourceful mindset. It's almost good enough to be the eleventh Moodscope Card!

The first week of October had been one of the best of my life. It might even have been the best. My Dad paid for an amazing place to stay in Devon, and we immersed ourselves in Nature for a week. Luxurious baths, scented candles, and a thousand Canada Geese taking off in formation, all worked their magic.

Then came last week. Nothing majorly went wrong, but a thousand little things did - one for every goose the week before. And they built up. If week 1 of October was 'light', then week 2 was 'darkness.'

The fascinating thing for me was that I felt anger building up like never before... to the point of rage. I actually got to the point where I couldn't contain it. The tipping point was well-resourced clients wilfully withholding payment so that they could pressure me to do more work for nothing. Hmm, that was motivating... not.

I exploded.

I'm a great believer that everything must be bent to serve our higher purpose. I don't believe everything happens for a purpose, nor that it all works out in the end – lost too many friends to cancer to believe that fairy-tale. But I do believe I have the mental muscle to force value out of every situation.

This belief allows me to step back from the non-sense and injustice and observe... watching for the lesson. With Spock, I said, "Fascinating!"

The lesson in last week's RAGE is that it is counterfeit. My anger is a mask. It is a mask for a deeper emotional state: fear.

I am afraid.

Anger is just one wrapping for fear.

Overeating, binge-drinking, you name it, there are a thousand wrappers available.

Thus, for me, at least, dealing with my anger is treating the symptom, not the cause.

This is where I stop and say, "Fascinating!"  And then I ask you, "How do YOU deal with fear?"

Lex
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Sunday, 22 October 2017

The Rainbow.



Rainbows have been mentioned quite a lot recently and a while ago I mentioned that I wanted to share a poem about a rainbow – but I could not find it.  

It was handwritten by a very inspirational man (and author) called Mr Semark.

Recently, the poem appeared without me even looking (as things do).

Although I wondered if it was some sort of sign and I would like to share it with you.
He would have been delighted to know that I had.

Mr Semark was 100 years old when he handed this poem to me, in perfect handwriting and even coloured a border around it with a felt tip pen.

He was full of wisdom and interesting stories, and as for his positivity, it was so admirable, I am sure that is why he lived until he was almost 102 years old.

The Rainbow

I have a rainbow all of my own,
In which only cheerful colours are shown
I paint the colours with fondness and care,
Hoping good luck, they will bear
And if my hopes and colours fade,
I paint another rainbow of a brighter shade. 

H W Semark


Molly
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Saturday, 21 October 2017

Nourish your mind, body and soul.

Feed yourself well, your body, your mind and your soul...let your 'plate' have enough nourishment to cope with be it a nibble or a feast, but be sure to satisfy every aspect of yourself in your daily diet. May your body have enough food to function, your intellect be fed so you are challenged and interested; your emotions be nurtured and replenished so that you can return heartfelt deeds and recognise feelings, your own and others. Your emotional health feeds into your social health, may alone time be balanced with the company of good relationships.

But most of all may your soul be nourished in ways in which you can flourish in connecting with yourself. For it is the Soul where the heart of living a wholesome life and inner peace resides. Your soul is your own friendship and acceptance with yourself. A starved soul feels lost and empty so take time to replenish and nurture it. Make the soul-soil fertile it is never too late to make those connections. There are many ways to get there, follow the route to your own heart, the choice is yours and your options are open.

Here's to your good health in every way, make peace with your soul and don't worry the rest will follow.

Trusty-Yogi
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Friday, 20 October 2017

Remind me: What are the 20 Moodscope cards.

In a recent Moodscope Blog comment I mentioned that a relatively new – but now very close – friend was incredulous that my Moodscope score was only 28% that day. In fact he found it a bit strange that I needed to use Moodscope at all. Of course we all know that there are many things about us that even close friends don't know: feelings that we mostly keep hidden, even feelings that we sometimes try to keep hidden from ourselves! He still doesn't know, and I won't tell him, that my scores have been much lower in the past and that my failed suicide attempt left me disappointed at the time.

Well... that discussion with my new friend got me thinking, got me into a philosophical frame of mind. I decided to look a little more deeply into the Moodscope Test answers I was giving. I guess I thought I ought to check the "calibration" of my current scores.

First I needed to remind myself what all the Moodscope cards are – personally I rattle through the test, taking each card as it gets dealt to me and have long ago lost that birds-eye view of the whole experience.

If you too have lost that overview then here are the Moodscope cards, each with the Moodscope definition of what they mean:

Active: Feeling full of energy
Afraid: Feeling frightened about something
Alert: Being quick to notice and react
Ashamed: Feeling shame for doing something wrong or foolish
Attentive: Paying close attention
Determined: Being resolute, showing determination
Enthusiastic: Showing eagerness
Excited: Looking forward to things
Guilty: Feeling regret for doing something wrong
Hostile: Feeling unfriendly towards others
Inspired: Feeling the desire to do something
Interested: Wanting to be involved in something
Irritable: Feeling easily annoyed.
Jittery: Feeling agitated and edgy
Nervous: Feeling nervous that something unpleasant will happen
Proud: Feeling a sense of achievement
Scared: Feeling alarmed about something
Strong: Feeling able to cope with difficulties
Upset: Feeling sad and troubled about things.

There are a series of fantastic Moodscope Blogs by Lex that go through each of the cards in much more detail from his personal perspective. If you search the archives (September to November 2013) then Lex's wonderful blogs are there for you to read.

I've re-read all of Lex's blogs, done some other research and now I've finished recalibrating my Moodscope score. My score has gone up, not dramatically but it has gone up. Maybe that's because I understand the questions better now or perhaps it's because doing the research has given me focus and improved my mood! (See INSPIRED and PROUD above).

In other blogs I will giving my personal interpretation of Lex's original posts and some intriguing aspects of my recent research.

Be yourself – rate yourself in your own terms: for me at least it's the trends that matter most.

Have a great day!

David
A Moodscope member.

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Thursday, 19 October 2017

Those difficult decisions.



What on earth does this picture have to do with difficult decisions? Because it comes under the list of 'Something's got to go'. A positive army is working on keeping me emotionally, mentally and physically healthy, made up of family, friends, doctors, nurses and psychiatrists. Most of my problems would be solved by money, but with my first house unsold, I am in a fix. Many people who posted to my blog 'When is a house a home' were in the invidious position of sorting out divorce – which counts with bereavement and house moving as the top stress reasons.

All three present hard and also emotional decisions. Where to live? (We are asked, if one of us dies, would the other return to UK and family? Love family, but No.) Money is paramount with divorce, the cost of re-housing mind-bending (many people now living in our area are only here because they could afford a property after divorce). And I've watched, personally, grandchildren commuting between separated parents – they all coped, and thrived, not always the case. I could write a book on watching our peer group 'down-sizing'.

They have dogs, so must stay with the garden. The dogs die, and sentimentality prevails over sense. If you have a big house, with lovely family furniture, the tug of parting with furniture can be as bad as the bereavement – so many memories. The garden's too big, you can't do it yourself, can't afford (or even find) a gardener, so you nag the family, who live 300 miles away and hate gardening anyway. My tall sons DO cut hedges – but possibly through blackmail – I will fall off the ladder or cut the flex of the hedge-cutter. (The pharmacist's son did just that).

So, back to the picture and my own particular decision making. My mother, who lived to nearly a 100, dying in 2001 (10 years after we moved to France) stayed with us a lot, attending all family gatherings, and spent 18 months with our eldest son and wife (everlastingly grateful) before moving into an excellent home. Every time I started preparations, every time, she would say 'It's a lot of work', and 'What do you want to make all the fuss for'. 'Because I like it, Mummy, and I love receiving and pleasing guests'.

So, gardening and a beautifully laid table and well-presented food are still important in my life, and I will hang on, grimly. The latest visiting son noted that the house was none too clean. He suggested that he and his brothers would club together to pay for a 'one off' professional cleaner. If they should be willing to subsidize their Mum, I will accept three days in a hotel with a swimming pool, a beach to walk along, not having to get up at 7.30 every morning, and, thus rejuvenated, I will do my own housework!

Those who are in the thick of moving, and for those for whom it is just a bad dream, what would you keep, or give up?

The Gardener
A Moodscope member.

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https://www.moodscope.com/blog/those-difficult-decisions

Tuesday, 17 October 2017

What helps you?

In my blog "Go with the Flow Part 1" on 19th September 2017, Daisy kindly pointed me in the direction of eannegram. This isn't a blog about eannegram itself, which I have found really helpful in understanding some of my behaviours and those of my alcoholic sister.  (Nor is it another blog about my sister.)

It has reminded me that there is so much wisdom, advice and support out there – whether from websites, books, family and friends, professionals, peer groups... the list is endless! It got me revisiting the books and resources I have acquired over the years, all of which helped me at different stages and in different ways.

So, lovely Moodscopers, today I invite you to choose one thing (just one!) that helped you in the past, and maybe is currently helping you or could help you at the moment. Let's share our experience and create a list which everyone can refer to when moods dip and times are tough. Let's see how long a list we can produce... Oh, and of course Moodscope is at the top so no-one can mention it again!

I suggest we don't repeat any resource; only one per Moodscoper – though we can "reply" to another person's suggestion: it will be interesting to see if some resources are more popular than others.

Mine is Louise Hay "You can heal your life" – which taught me so much about the negative thought patterns in our minds, and the power of affirmations to turn things around.

Your turn!

Frankie
A Moodscope member. 

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https://www.moodscope.com/blog/what-helps-you

Monday, 16 October 2017

All Your Life Is A Rehearsal For Today.

It's an interesting aphorism, isn't it? What if all your life has been a rehearsal for this very day?

Isn't this the truth?

All your experience, all your emotions, all your beliefs, all the meaning you've ascribed to all the events that have happened to you, everything you've said, everything you've thought, everything you've felt – all these things will influence the choices you make today.

And those choices will influence today's 'Show'.

So, if today is 'Show Time!' and you've already showed up for it, what's the Show going to be called? What's it going to be about? What kind of genre: comedy, drama, musical, adventure, fantasy...?

And who is going to be in the Show?

Not only have you rehearsed your whole Life for today, you can also exercise creative control.

· You can influence who is in the cast; Who's 'in' and who's 'out'?

· You can influence where the Show takes place;

· You can influence what happens when;

· You can influence the pace of what happens;

· You can influence what part you'll play, what you'll say, and who you'll say it to;

· And you can influence the outcome – the ending – the finale – the result.

I say 'influence' because there are other players who have also been rehearsing for today.  They'll have their part to play too, and they'll have their say, but let's not forget who the Star is, shall we?

Time to Shine!

Lex
A Moodscope member.

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Sunday, 15 October 2017

The cogs turn the wheel.

I may have bored you silly by now rambling on about my best friend. (The tree.) But he is a big part of my life and I like sharing his wisdom and his guidance. He is currently amber in colour. He winks when the sun tickles him and he is giving parts of himself away when the winds get close.

He is my marker. He is my spot. I look at him when I want to know where I am. If I am low on energy he reminds me to stop. And I stop with him. If I am needing to move he reminds me that my movements need just to be regular, not big. We all need a marker. A guide.   Having no partner, I need him to be my sensible head. And he is always, always there. I learned communication needs not the spoken word.

Having him as my marker has proved to be invaluable to me. And I don't really care if it's a little crazy to place my trust in a tree. It works for me. It gets me through.

Do you have a marker? A magnet to attract you, a candle in a hurricane lamp, a compass, the horizon, a written down plan, a mantra or prayer, perhaps a training schedule or a project. Something that brings you method and result. It can be a bit of a life saver.

Love from

The room above the garage
A Moodscope member.

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Saturday, 14 October 2017

How do you handle rejection?

Kate Di Camillo winner if 3 Newberry Awards for Children's Literature received an incredible 473 rejection letters within a 6-year period before her first novel 'Because of Winn-Dixie' was published.

When Kate talks to students she uses a theme of persistence and determination. She likes to make a guessing game out of the number of times her writing was knocked back.

Children usually start at 5, then go to 10 and then think they are brave and say 50.

When Kate says no it is way more than that, the students are puzzled as to why she kept going and going only to be rejected again and again.

She explains to students that while she could not control whether she was talented she could keep on trying.

I think I would have given up probably before 100 rejection letters as my self-belief, self-esteem and self-worth would have been exhausted.

I assume that with each rejection she was spurred on to write something new or improve what she had written so the same book was not rejected 473 times. It was the tally of letters for all the writing she submitted over the years.

I find this an amazing story of determination or was it sheer stubbornness that kept her going.

I wonder if she had not been published after 473 rejections would she have gone to 500 or more. Did she have a cut-off point?

Would you have had the determination to keep going?

It can be for anything not just writing, anything you get rejected for, or are not succeeding at, would you persist no matter how long it took?

Or would you say I did my best and give up when you had given all you could?

Leah 
A Moodscope member

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Friday, 13 October 2017

I am feeling lonely.

I am feeling lonely. There I've got it off my chest. I am feeling lonely and hurt and that's painful.

I knew that last week was going to be quiet as my kids were going off on holiday with their Dad, my Mum was off on holiday with a friend and my sister and family were also off up in Scotland. So as well as my day job, it was my job to keep an eye on my lovely but elderly Dad. This I did well. Curry was cooked on Wednesday night, we had a little day trip to a garden centre with a spot of lunch, a few hours I will treasure forever, and in chaos, as my cooker broke midweek, I produced Sunday dinner for him and my kids at his house despite having to grapple with a new oven which he had no idea how to work and simultaneously arbitrate a fight about felt tip pens.

Over the years I have developed a good sense of cherishing the moment and am pretty good at finding little pleasures in the small things. Indeed I am normally someone who is quite happy in my own company so this feeling of searing loneliness is a bit of a shock. At the heart of this is that two of my friends who I hold dear and have been good friends over some years have been too busy to see me and maybe are no longer as good friends as they once were or I had hoped for.

Now I know that I am patient and loyal, and I am trying to stop that cycle of negative thinking that starts with "Why me?" and if continued would, after a tirade of personal self-criticism, result in a complete character assassination of myself. I am also having to restrain myself from lashing out. I don't do it often but if I do it rarely ends well.

So I have realised that I am normally so busy I don't have time to take stock but work is quiet, people are away and so I have had plenty of time for reflection. Some of this has led to me making new plans for the Autumn, a determination to catch up with friends who maybe live further away and a pottery course booked for Fridays in Autumn. But taking stock has also led to my feeling cross and disappointed.

I hope this blog is not too self-indulgent. It has taken me years to develop the emotional intelligence to understand and name my feelings and to believe they are valid.

So this time I'm not offering platitudes or funny stories of life as a single parent, today I am asking for advice. How do you cope with rejection and what do you do when you feel lonely?

As for me, I will hunker down to the afternoon play and let life drift slowly by until I have licked my wounds and re-discovered my "va va voom".

Yours

Brum Mum
A Moodscope member.

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Thursday, 12 October 2017

Hectic (lifestyle):

Help needed to slow down
Enthusiastic to the point of obsession/addiction
Capable of many things and clever thoughts
Time to put the plan into action
Interested in everything, but not one focus
Calming does me a power of good.

The mind works all the time we are asleep. I wake early, and try to get an extra half hour's sleep. To no avail: my brain is cranking up like the central heating boiler, and will not switch off.

Unlike the central heating boiler, I can't rush downstairs and alter the settings on the control box, switch to the "Off" button.

For some time, I review plans for the day ahead: this to do, a phone call to make, mustn't forget. But as we have guests staying, I can't pad downstairs to make a cup of tea. There is a dog in the living room, who will wake and then that will be it... owners say he doesn't settle again. So, I sip the water from the glass by my bedside, aware of my husband's peaceful breathing as he sleeps on in the marital bed, and do the acrostic above, using the first letter of my chosen word, hectic, to start a thought on the matter.

My current hectic lifestyle provides the skeleton for this simple exercise. We used to give acrostics to the pupils at school to do quite often. Today, it helps sort out some of my brain fog, and stops me going into overdrive. I have taken hold of the reins, and "held back the horses", gaining a measure of control over whirring thoughts.

What ways do you use to help your mind relax when it is too crowded?

How effective is this in relaxing you for the day ahead?

I'd be interested to know what methods others try when sleep evades them, and the mind is galloping?

Sally
A Moodscope member.

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https://www.moodscope.com/blog/slow-down-youre-going-too-fast-now

Wednesday, 11 October 2017

Giving Comfort.

We all think we know what that means, don't we?

It's the arm slipped around your shoulders when you are hurt or grieving; the soft words of solace. It may be physical, as a warm quilt is placed around you; as you are led towards a sofa, and your hand is gently held. * Comfort is consolation in times of trouble.

Comfort is ease. In the words of an old-fashioned advertising brochure (I believe for a horse drawn carriage – which just shows how old-fashioned it is), "Four persons may travel in perfect comfort." We talk of our bed being comfortable. We speak of a comfortable relationship or a comfortable silence. In this context, we mean that the bed does not poke us in our tender places; our relationship springs no surprises; the silence does not demand words to fill the emptiness. Comfort has no awkwardness, confrontations or demands.

But if that is all we think of "Comfort", then we do it less than justice.

Now, please bear with me. Remember that I am a writer and that words are my language (ahem).

The word "comfort" used to mean far more than it does now.

If we go back to the etymology of the word, we see it is made up of the Latin "con/com" – meaning much or greatly, and "fortis", meaning to strengthen.

So, to "comfort" is better expressed as to "encourage" or "inspire".

The Bayeux Tapestry tells the story of the invasion of England by William the Conqueror. In one panel, a bishop is seen laying about a group of reluctant soldiers with the flat of his sword. The caption says: "Bishop Odo comforts the troops."  Hmmm – a strange kind of comfort we may think!

But in the bible Jesus says to his disciples (John 14:16), "And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever." This is normally assumed to be the Holy Spirit, which (who) alighted upon the disciples at Pentecost, changing them from terrified, cowering individuals into a force which changed the world (for good or ill is your own view). That force is hardly one which uses soft cushions and comfy chairs!

Today I asked my friend of "longest standing" to be my comforter. I poured my heart out to her and said: "I need you to be straight with me. Am I being stupid?"

She was straight. She was firm. She was enormously encouraging. But she presented me with a challenge. She was my "comfort".

I need to rise to that challenge. And it is hard. One day, I may be able to share with you just how hard.

In the meantime, I wish you comfort. Not the cosy comfort of the easy chair, but the robust comfort of encouragement – and the force to face what you prefer to ignore. May you rise to it!

Mary
A Moodscope member.

*And at this point I am irrepressibly reminded of Monty Python's Spanish Inquisition torture sketch: "Cardinal Fang – fetch the comfy chair!" http://bit.ly/2fYiyze ; I am sorry for it – but there it is!

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Monday, 9 October 2017

Back to University.

The guy on Reception at the Best Western Hotel was not happy. He couldn't cope with the flow of customers... increasingly irritable customers. He told me he was "stressed." I didn't need to be told, but I'm glad he shared. I sympathised.

That little bit of rapport through sympathy was enough for him to open up. He confessed he was going to leave. This was the fourth hotel he'd been at - and I'm guessing they were all as 'bad' as one another. It wasn't his fault.

S-T-R-E-T-C-H...

My heart went out to this young man because I could see his future. He was running from problems instead of embracing them. I knew that as soon as he changed hotels again, he would encounter exactly the same types of issues as he was clearly failing to face here. Whether it's a job or a relationship - running from the problem only ends in finding the same issue reincarnated in your next scenario.

This is why I love problems.

They save me a fortune in University fees.

Let me explain and expand. If you're like me, you'll be bombarded by 'opportunities' to subscribe to expensive educational sites. What these sites fail to realise is that I am already enrolled in an amazing educational programme... for free!

Not only am I enrolled, I get to take the same class over and over again until I pass! And when I pass, I graduate to a whole new level of 'problems as my teachers'!

Now, don't get me wrong. I secretly 'hate' problems. I'd like an easy life. But this is not a realistic expectation - I know that now. Problems S-T-R-E-T-C-H my mind and it never returns to its earlier size or state. Problems make me a better man - more resilient - more able to cope...

...IF...
...if I learn from them.

Otherwise, I encounter the same problem clothed in another situation or difficult person to deal with.

Recognise now that you too are enrolled in the University of Life where problems are your best teachers.

And here's today's opportunity to share. I'd LOVE to hear about problems that you have overcome on your journey so far - and what you've learned from them.

Lex
A Moodscope member.

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Sunday, 8 October 2017

Being nice.

Hands up anyone who thinks they are too nice?

This last week has been a challenging one for me.

Certain people set off the train of thought in my mind that perhaps I am just too nice to others for my own good and actually some people to whom I was nice didn't really like it or appreciate it.

A very good friend told me I was too nice and should step back a bit and not always try to please.

A close family member told me that practically everything she had in her house, I had bought for her and she had too much and to stop buying. My husband of course loved to hear this.

These two people might be right but what they didn't know (through no fault of their own, I just hadn't explained it to them) was the reason why I was too nice and tried to please.

I think it all stems from a feeling of inadequacy on my part.  I have away felt wrongly or rightly that I don't contribute much in terms of humour or light heartedness and am too serious overall. So I tend to be a pleaser and to make up for the lack of normal skills, which other people who don't suffer from depression or low moods seem to posses quite naturally, I am just nice.

I am going to try to stand back a little and not exactly turn into a not nice person but not try so hard to please. The family member who spoke in haste to me but was probably right, may miss the thoughtful practical things I buy her but at least I will give her the chance and space to miss them.

Do others think they are too nice? Any advice would be gratefully received on my part. I don't want or can't undergo a complete personality change but I do think it's time for a slight change in my behaviour. I don't think I can change my low moods but I may be able to make this small alteration to my constantly wanting to be nice (so boring!), to buy to make up for perceived inadequacies and to please.

Jul
A Moodscope member

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https://www.moodscope.com/blog/being-nice

Saturday, 7 October 2017

Let us have garlic.

Last year, there was conversation on the Moodscope blog which touched raw places for some people. (I am only writing now about it because I keep a note of things I'd like to write about and I simply haven't done it so far.) I think touching raw places is almost never a bad thing. Provided nobody is being rude or hurtful, it is not a bad thing to get down into the sore parts. It can be needed and good, like drilling decay in preparation for a smooth, white, filling. In yoga there is a theory that the movements you want to do least are the ones you need to do most.

Facing up to the bad stuff in our lives, from the dodgy to the horrific, is never easy for us and sometimes can, and must, only be done with professional guidance. But being able to say you have been torn into pieces by bad things and are willing to accept that you must travel forwards with it, I believe, is the difference between surviving and living.

I think for many, many years I have been surviving. And I need to upgrade to living. I need to do some exorcising and, as yet, I don't know how in particular I will go about this. But step one is being aware. Surviving only to re-live our pains daily, is akin to walking with bare feet along a path of broken glass. At some point we must pick up the glass and carry it, allowing ourselves to walk, with sorrow perhaps, but without renewed and searing pain.

I will keep you posted on my ideas for the exorcisms that might upgrade me. (I might start with new undies, woo hoo!) And I look forward to hearing if any of you lovely lot have exorcisms to share.

Love from

The room above the garage
A Moodscope members.

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